10/01/2010

Hey its a quite sometime i have not been in my blog... Well where shud i start first... Abt my life huh... Well here i go...

Last year 2009 was a year that many things have happen.. First family then many problems occur in me.. What a life!!! But then i still stay strong and face all kinds of the obstacle tat haf been thru me.. I was lucky enough that i haf my fiance by myside when i was really dwn.. Thanks papa...

Lets talk abt my family..

Guess everyone noe abt how my family have been treated me.. I never get the happiness frm them. All i get is being F@#* up and dwn.. Why must they treat me this way?? Am i ur daughter mum?? If yes why must u treat me this way... Well what can i say i juz no one in her heart and family.. For gdness sake NO FAMILY LOVE at all... Arghhhh!!!! Only god noe hw i suffer since am a kid till now.. Yes i do admit i was rebellious in the family but tat doesn mean u haf to treated me this way... Cut it short AM OUT FRM THE FAMILY TREE...

Abt my life...

I love my life now and then. I have my fiance by myside. Ups and dwn we went thru together. Quarrel is always in our life. This mth is our 6 mth together.. Alhamdulilah.. we still remain strg although we always quarrel. He teach me alot in LIFE.. Frm rebellious gerl to (ahakz cant get what i gonna sae).. LOL... Thanks for making me face the reality in life..


to my lovely wife..

thanks alot for been with me though the 6 months.. we should noe that there alot of up and downs.. but u should noe patience is the most important in relationship.. without patience we cant hold long.. banyak dugaan kita tempuhi walaupun kita half year.. frankly my patience that i set for you are very high.. dont noe why.. u wana to noe why i always marah kat u but my fwen i just diam...
seriously u are becoming my wife n i have to hold the pride of our names has a family..
bukan i suke2 nak marah.. kdd i just tergur what not gd for me to hear or see.. i just want u 2 be my n only my.. i noe that u are trying to change from tumb down to ups.. i dont like to hear people gosip about u..

A msg frm my papa..

Continue back my story...

My 2010 is worse then i expected.. 8 more days to go.. Thought my 2010 am goin to be a change gerl but i was wrong. Spending my life to sum place which i shud not belong. Gosh!!! Hw am i goin to face all this seh. My Life like shit.. regret for watever happen.. Haiz..

To my Lovely Papa...

I marah kat u coz i got a reason why.. Coz i tak nak u jadi sochai org kesana sini.. Papa... U noe i just left with 8 days outside. This 8 days is very precious for me. All i need is u by my side 24/7 not leaving me even a second. When u at werk i wait patiencely for u to return even am alone by myself outside. Today is sunday is the only day i haf with u, yet its still the same.. Why dnt u simply understand mama punye perasaan.. u want me to understand urs and i did. but why cant me.. papa.. next week sun is the last day last night i with u tau.. The next day am gone by urside for one year.. Plz syg, every tyme, every second, every minute, every hr ur moments is very precious for me. Please juz be with me for this 8 days. I dnt even ask u to take mc juz to b with me. I just need ur little tyme of urs to b with me. U noe for this few days am so emotional and hot tempered.. Can u jus be patince with my attitude.. I was so stress with what happen in my life. u NOE what am drifting away frm u papa... Leaving u outside by urself without me by ur side. I just cant bare to leave u juz like tat.

Today why i attitude is because am TOTALLY sad with u. U break the promises we made. Why must u do this to me papa... Kerana kawan atau ex u sanggup tipu i.. I buat u skali tapi nie dah dua kali u buat i. Kenapa papa... kenapa... apa salah i sampai u sanggup buat i nie mcm.. (nie bukan ungkit tapi this is the feelings tat i haf nw)... i want happiness nt sadness.. u sendiri tau dah brape hari i asyik ngangis fikir kan mcm2.. yet u hurt my feelings.. Arghhhh!!!!

Well syg, i gt nothing much to say nw. All i can say to u is Think first before u do something... Mama love eu so much!!!..

End of my blog for today.. will continue tmrw..