My Sorrow day has gone (08 May 2010). New day cum..

What a day on 8th may 2010... A very Sad day for me. Suppose to be happy but turn out to be sad. I miss my dad. Yesterday is his 24th anni of death. All i can do is given him a bit of prayer of Al-fatihah. Amin.. The sad part is i cant go to his grave coz i gt no cash in hand. Secondly i was sick.. Having a fever on my birthday. Thirdly i was juz being myself without my love one by myside. haiz.. All d obstacle i face with a lot of shit.. but then this is all to test my patience. God is great. What a birthday day i haf on 8 may.

Full of obstacle to go thru. What a life i have now...Times change so fast.

Ya allah ya tuhan.. Aku terima je apa yg ko beri ku selama nie. aku anggap nie satu dugaan yg harus ku tempuh selama aku hidup. hidup aku dah penuh dgn seksa di dunia...

babah, semoga roh mu dicucuhri rahmat dan semoga babah di letak di golongan org yg beriman. amin.

A sad Birthday for me!!!!!!!

Today is my birthday suppose to be happy but i was turn to be sad... why seh??? have been crying for the whole day.. haiz... am so stress... My love is not w me by my side for the whole day.. All he do is play games, chat with his fren till he go werk.. i was left alone.. haiz.. luckily have his sister to talk too.. (i knw i have dne a mistake to u but doesn mean u cant forgive me rite??? ur mistake i cn forgive why nt me???) Like u say everyone make a mistake.. so do i.. but then if u think my mistake is so big for u pa, plx look backward of urs.. whose is much more biggest?? u or me?? well papa, mama tak nak ungkit apa2 pun but then u always sae watever am doin is all revenge.. its not pa.. u blum dgr the whole story yet u trus buat i nie mcm.. Nvm la not my dae also... Its ok.. hari2 kita gaduh pa.. am so stress..badan i nie mcm da lali plak w ur pukul... selalu kena pukul w abg nw w u.. haiz.. i tau i degil ungkal tapi tak semestinye kena jalan tangan... wheres ur promises pa, tat u wnt lay hand again on me.. no matter how kuat u pukul i, i tetap by urside walaupun hati i nie terluka.. I dah terlalu sygkan u pa.. am afraid of losing u. U sendiri tau i takde sape2 lage dlm idup except u n ur family.. mak da bleh accept i, u plak nie mcm... am so sad tau.. haiz... kalau papa fikir tat our world of love is rocky juz do our own ways k.. i dnt want u to suffer juz because of me. I noe i byk menyusah kan u. Frm the day i lari umah smp skg tak abis2 menyusahkan u.. Thanks for the support all tis while.. if i found a proper job i will never ever menyusahkan u lage ok.

11.30pm u left hme and go out w ur fren. Thanks for the birthday present ya...

i got nothing else to say as am sad... haiz...